Monday, July 28, 2008

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welcomeback.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

flashing blue light...

out of the corners of my eyes when i scroll down i can hear my harddrive make pittering noises. i have one really big head cold and a case of hives again. merry christmas.

Friday, December 14, 2007

somebody told me a beautiful fairy tale...

only it wasn't a fairy tale, it was her life. i guess i had my doubts but i might be able to hold my breath a little longer now.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

dear self,

wish you were here...



...again.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

a word i abhor:

co·he·sive [koh-hee-siv] Pronunciation Key
–adjective

1. characterized by or causing cohesion: a cohesive agent.

2. cohering or tending to cohere; well-integrated; unified: a cohesive organization.

3. Physics. of or pertaining to the molecular force within a body or substance acting to unite its parts.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Erichead!

My buddy from MCAD. Lovely illustrations, and a pretty decent breaker when he feels like dancing.

Eric Schuster

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

inventory


yesterday was an interesting day. elise and suzy have been nagging me about making lists thinking that this might help clear the non-linear chaos of my mind. normally i avoid this practical practice because... well because i can't actually say. maybe i feel like if i make it through the chaos in my own time/space/manner of coping then hey!

anyways, the thought came to me while i should have been taking notes on the battle of algiers (which is actually an excellent movie) that i was going to start listing the emotional clutter as well.

then i had a long conversation with a very drunk boy last night that made me realize a few things: we experience the same patterns of behavior with the same situations. all my relationships have consisted of the same components just a new face, a new set of circumstances.

it kind of inspired me ask if anyone else wants to play?

write it down, the emotional stuff you are sifting through. an inventory of heartaches or frustrations that somehow alleviate themselves when they are no longer abstracted thoughts but meaningless items waiting to be checked off a marginal agenda.

i love seeing hand written things. would anyone like to share their "lists"? it's like peeking at someone's journal... I'm going to start collecting and posting if anyone's interested in sharing.